Ty for your thoughtful words and it’s so encouraging for me to know you made it!!
Yes family knows, friends know..all very much there for when I’m ready to take action.
As far as my plan I’m still very confident. Things have taken a turn for the worse but In a strange way for the better. I have become cold and pretty mean to him and explained why (not that it makes it ok and I hate who I am at this time due to this) but it’s really a relief to know this is it. I’m done. Truly done. I’m being stern. I’m being honest and ready to leave or for him to leave at any second and it would truly be a blessing.
I recall the says where I thought I’d die if I lost him
He still is so self absorbed. Still doesn’t understand why I am so hateful towards him etc etc
And I truly don’t care to keep explaining. I am now putting energy into me remaining strong and mentally happy as everyone deserves that.
The pity train literally has left this building. I no longer can take his mental illness issues on nor his drug addiction and truly I feel that’s his only problem with me wanting it to be over..cuz he won’t have me to pick up his mess of all that comes with this crazy crippling nightmare.
I’m so glad I found this! It’s a relief during this pandemic ❤️