Definitely not alone! I know that overwhelming lost feeling of being just stuck on where what and how all too well.
For me and only me has it took all of these past 6 years with my spouse to truly understand that I am powerless has he is the only one who can make a change.
It’s truly tuff but in all honestly all that I have learned repeatedly was I can only do what’s best for me.
There is no right or wrong to it..day by day and reaching out on here like I have is a huge and very brave step!! Shows you seek the support which is a given for us.
I wish you peace. And reach out anytime ❤️