Hi,
I’m really sorry to read your post and to see how badly affected you are by your ex partner’s addiction.
I’m glad that you have this site to talk to others in the same situation as you. If you would like any further support please contact us at The Icarus Trust. We are a charity that supports people dealing with the addiction of a partner or family member. We know how hard this is and we can offer help if you get in touch.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
Good luck.