Hi TottiG,
Thanks so much for sharing your story and how your partner’s addiction affects you. I’m really glad you’ve found this site and can talk with others sharing your experience.
If you would like some more support maybe you would like to contact us at The Icarus Trust. We are a charity that provides support for people going through what you are, because of the addiction of a family member or friend.
We have very experienced trained, people that we call family Friends. If you contact us one of them would get in touch with you and listen to you and may be help you to keep strong and see a way through the nightmare.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
Good luck and take care.