Hi,
Thank you so much for posting and being so honest about how your husband’s addiction affects you and your girls. I’m sorry too that you feel so trapped.
I work for a charity called The Icarus Trust. We are there to support people, like yourself , who are affected by a family member or friend’s addictive behaviours. We know how tough this is and how lonely it can make you feel.
We have very experienced trained people we call Family Friends who are good listeners and would understand what you are dealing with. If you get in touch, I could put you in contact with one of them which might help you to untangle how you are feeling and find a way forward.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
Take care and keep strong.