Louise I might still do that!! Thing is mine tends to only see me when he wants to get hammered and he’s said that himself that I am his escape from reality :/ it’s like he lives in the ‘real world’ for a few weeks then can’t hack it so slowly goes down hill and then boom phones none stop and he’s here acting wild!
Kel1 Well it’s kind if clear that he won’t be here now so as usual I’ll put it to the back of my mind .. But yeah I am feeling anger right now to the point that when he does decide to call I feel like I am going to say I live in the real world and to be honest I don’t need this sh*t, clearly you don’t ever think about me when your ok any normal thinking person would at least message the other person and ask how they are not just ignore them. I think this time it’s worse as I’ve sat and listened to the apologies and the promise he’s changing and he’s basically set out the rules of seeing me once a week and telling me when he needs space but then broken them, it just drives me insane that he swore he was sober when he was messaging when clearly he wasn’t.
So I feel like I am going to say, your selfish, and yes I said I’d be there but no actually not like this as I am not a lesser person than you and obviously you think I am.
Funny as I had his photo read last night by a medium and she basically put back that he’s shy, he’s troubled, has issues to deal with before he makes commitments, has another girl around him that he likes, he likes me but feels inadequate to be loved, hates himself, lacks self esteem, will let me down if he commits now as he isn’t ready, I’ll get him eventually if I want him but have to let the time pass for it to unfold. Litrally all she had was his photo and the connection he is a friend .. Hit the nail on the head, she’s also said I can do better and after lock down I am going to meet someone. Funny that people keep saying after lock down it will be different like this situations only happened now like no this has been going on for years!!