Hi
Thanks for sharing your story. I’m so sorry that you’ve been having such hard time due to your partner’s drinking. I hope that writing the post and being so honest and open has helped a little.
I’m sorry to hear that you haven’t had any help for yourself, especially as you have been so supportive to your partner. I wonder if you would like to contact us at The Icarus Trust.
We are a charity that supports people who are having to cope with a partner’s addiction. We have trained and experienced people that you could talk with, and may be that would help to be able to find a way ahead.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
Wishing you all the best.