Thank you so much for your reply.
I feel like i have had to break things off because it would have continued enabling to live this lifestyle, hes lost everything which is horrible to do to him but iv had to. Its been incredibly hard when i do love him. Hes really trying his best and has been more honest and open than hes ever been with me. Told me everything even stuff difficult to hear.
He is doing well, but what worries me is there are going to be times when hes not and then what. I told him i wont be in a relationship with him how he was. And i worry hes doing this for me even though iv told him it needs to be for him.
The drs werent very helpful and only offered to higher the dose of his antidepressants. The only support i have is coming on here to speak to people my family all hate him, they don’t understand and think they are just protecting me. And iv lost most friends because of how our relationship was, he became jealous and controlling.