Just seen my emails today
Day 50 today ????????
Things are alot easier. Cravings are next to none.
My erratic behaviour has dissipated. I’m thinking clearly. I’m calm and finding self happiness.
My ex still hates me she says trying to wind me up yesterday messaging but I genuinely dont care at all 0 emotion 0 feeling. She was also slagging me off but got 0 reaction from me. I treat her like I’m one dimensional now so if she says something I just give her blunt replies and smile.
She was tryna call me a druggie etc etc I’ve said when I’m at day 90 I’ll do a hair strand for her and she can swivel on it.
17th may was last time I used when it happened. It’s like something in my head clicked and I cant go back to that life… never. The anxiety during the withdrawal Stage was unbelievable. I’m in week 7 so not long till it’s completely extinct from my system all guidelines state 10 weeks.
This Is for a lifetime but after week 10 lifes meant to be much easier.
I did this on my own the hard way. Was homeless with no money no job and no one.
I’ve got alot more money even bought myself a new car. Bought the kids an electric bicycle aswell the other day.
I have a job I have family I have new friends.
I list what am grateful for everyday. Last night I listed about 20 things. When I started I could only do 1 or 2
But thankyou for asking ????