So mine sent the message pretending to be his mum and didnt hear from him for a week.
He then comes back saying he’s not spoken as he’s been in a negative mind frame but he’s decided we need to do the dating thing .. he’s apparently booked a few weekends away, we had some deep text convos where he’s said he sees a future with me without having to go looking to start again .. He promised he was coming over at the weekend, I didn’t hold out much hope but low and behold he phoned me saying he was coming a day earlier.
Picked him up he was sober talking about all the plans he’s been making and some he’s put in place all positive and NORMAL until about 12 at night .. Went up to the bathroom and was gone for a bit so I went up and wiped the side and you know it .. so asked if he’s done it and he said yeah but just one line as he’s got to think clearly to tell me some stuff .. He then says he’s scared of loosing me and then we had a long convo until 7am about his problems and life, where we are at basically made me think you know what he’s actually better than he’s ever been he actually does love me.
Went to sleep then said he was going to a meeting which I was like ok .. Said he would be home for 4 .. picked him up flat on his face at 7 but he was proud as he’d taken no drugs .. He was passed out by 8 so I had to do the usual getting him to bed stripping him off etc.
Woke up the next day asking what he had done and I think he wanted me to go off on one but I actually kept calm .. He looked shocked I’d managed to get him in bed and bought water up for him.
He went back to sleep for a few hours woke up the perfect man and then stayed all day sober and taking nothing .. Sent him a text on Sunday night and he’s not opened it.
So basically I am at the point now.
I said to him I feel like he uses me as it’s like he can come here do what he wants then go and pretend to everyone he’s still clean and he said he really does want to see me 100% wants to spend time with me and it’s not just about the drugs at all .. He’s trying to do right and put the past right so he can move forward with it all an him wanting me there should tell me that he loves me. From the messages I’ve seen he’s sent to people and how he’s talking I think yeah he is .. but I just feel like if you really cared you wouldn’t leave a message unseen for 2 days and maybe he’s trying to get right with everyone but as I don’t give him drama it’s ok.
But then I think everything I give him he could actually get somewhere else, so what is it about me that keeps him coming back if he doesn’t mean the deep things he says :/
Head wreck