I actually agree with everything you said, I know this is not going to go the way i want it deep down. this life with him isn’t worth it he messed up and im not going to let him bring me down with him – more I think about it more I realise he just manipulated me into thinking that I can fix him when I know I cant. he just want to save face to his family thats all it is. once im gone then what else has he got to show for he lost everything and its up to him to pick the pieces up not use me. he decided to use drugs alone or with his mates now he can come back alone or with the help of his ‘mates’ which we know will not work because that circle just wants one thing, get high on coke. so its not my problem. harsh but yeah I will not invest my future in him just play along because even I know its a matter of weeks if not days till he will mess up as he isn’t getting professional help which I been saying to him to get.
