This was the saddest thing. I am so sorry for what you’re going trough. My heart is breaking for you and I can literally feel your pain trough your words. My boyfriend is doing drugs and it’s killing me, I am anxious, depressed, suicidal at times, I can only imagine how it feels when it is your child.
I know this hurts, I can’t even imagine the extent when it’s your kid, but you have to find a way to find happiness, in a smallest things. In your other children, in your friend. Just smallest things, just something to get you trough the day. You are his mother, but not only his and not only that. You are here for a reason and you have to gather your strength and fight for yourself too.
I am so sorry, nobody deserves that, especially moms. I’m sending you lots of love and positive energy. Be strong!