I actually really relate to your post. I have been with my husband for 9 years married for two and it’s been a rollercoaster ever since we met. I really have lost trust now and get so anxious every time I hear a beer bottle open. He can’t get through a Friday without cocaine. But my husband doesn’t want to stop, so I am just trying to decided if i can carry on in this chaos or if I have to walk away. It’s one of the hardest decisions I have ever had to make and I think in my gut I know what I have to do but my heart just won’t let me. My life feels filled with anxiety, conflict and lies and I’m just not sure I can endure anymore but I also know it’s an addiction and I want to support him in the best way I can as he doesn’t deserve to be given up on.
