Thanks for the reply, It makes sense. seeing it in black and white makes it more real that I need to put myself first for a change! We’ve been together 20 years married 18 next month and I think about all the years wasted if I walk away but like you said I need to put me first now! I find out where he’s been as he’s not very good at covering his tracks and he eventually gives in and tells me all the sordid details in the end. Your right I need out of this marriage so seeing as I’m the one acting like an adult I think it’s time I got those black bags out and sent him on his way. It’s gonna be hard I know as I really don’t have a support network to lean on but I’ve got to save myself first I suppose. Again thanks for the reply, it’s helped me realise why I already knew tbh bit have been too afraid to do but it’s got to be done enough enough!