You have people, don’t ever stay just because you think you have noone. Well, we are here for you, so are many other support groups. What about friends and family?
I do understand and I may sound harsh, and I shouldn’t but I think it’s important to speak directly. My relationship ended, we also was together 22 years ???? so I get it, and I get how scary it feels. In the end I had a break down so I guess that’s what I’m trying to prevent for you, I went through hell! It’s awful and I’m sorry this is happening to you! But you’re not alone and you should never “put up” because of that reason. At the very least come on here to talk with others.