I truly don’t have any family I can turn to at all, my friend who I would have confided in lost her partner suddenly 2 weeks ago tomorrow and is still in the very early stages of bereavement and I’m supporting her at the moment so I really don’t want to put any more on her shoulders she’s enough going on without my troubles so tbh this is the only place I have at the moment and you wouldn’t believe how grateful I am that someone’s replied! I like straight talking and sometime being harsh is needed to get the message through so I appreciate it honestly.
I just wish I could find the strength to end the marriage I really do, I’ve involved his mum now and sent him there while I have some time to gather myself which I’ve never done before so I’m hoping it’s the start of me standing up to this addiction he’s got. I love obviously I do I wouldn’t have stayed 20 years, your right it’s having to face the unknown that’s the scary part! He’s all I’ve ever know so it’s going to be hard but I have to be brave and face the reality of being married to a cocaine addict. Thankyou for your advise it really has helped me to see I can’t save him and I need to save myself from him and his addiction