Awww that’s really sad reading that, as I can imagine you’re holding all of your emotions together and that’s not easy. You’re capable of love and respect, along with honesty and decency, and at the moment he can’t give you or anyone that!
Love yourself first, as cliche as that sounds its so important! Because you are a lovely girl that deserves better.
Of course it’s hitting you, that’s what happens when they go away for so long! And I know it isn’t easy. As for th dating, I understand what you’re saying but what’s the rush? Are you in a right place emotionally to date at the mo! I’m not one for getting over one for the other and I’m not saying you’re doing that at all, just be careful, because this is your self worth here. And you are important.
As for them getting sorted haha mine called today, leaving voice messages and finally I spoke with him. Oh you wouldn’t believe the crap I’ve heard today. And I said we’ve ended and then he flipped one! Get the tears, begging and all the rest of it but I’ve stood my ground but he wants to see me face to face before he accepts it and will call me tomorrow and whenever I want ????????????????????????
I don’t want to be reeled back in so Maybe we can help one another out here.