Hi I’m on day 75 clean from cole. Not a key a line nothing. I lost everything and that’s what it took for me to stop. I’m much happier now as it was toxic in the end anyway. My addiction was triggered and enabled by my ex wife. Not just her fault I made that choice to shove it up my nose.
In the past year and half of our marriage the coke took me over. Paranoia. Abusive erratic behaviour mentally. I wore her down. Made her feel like she wasnt good enough and put her down. All she wanted to do was help me because she loved me and I see that now but it’s too late.
My point is I would of never changed if she didnt do what she did. I cant ever return to her even if I wanted too as it could trigger in my head that way of life again.
Cocaine makes people exert alot of erratic and impulsive behaviours and also anger. I’ve just been on the biggest withdraw of my life but luckily brain feels clear and has returned to what I believe full functionality or near full .
When I sit and examine my behaviour what it was like i guess she could call me a narcissist as that was the behaviours I displayed. Something that I have to live with as that is not me st all.
I’d suggest cutting contact till he proves he is clean. If you need to get police involved do it. They will help you as you are protecting your children.
Mesaage kel1 on here she is excellent with stuff like this and the advice she given me helped me significantly to get clean