Yeah exactly the grip of it is what they want like to check your still waiting for something that’s not gonna come!! Even though they are in control of it all actually!!
I was saying to my friend earlier it’s like I don’t take what mine does personally .. but I take what the other one has done personally and she was like how can you do that .. but what she doesn’t get is last weeks guy did what he did in full mind and he’s had the chance to right it and he hasn’t where as the main one isn’t in his right mind half the time and when he is the shame of it all is too real for him to deal with so it’s back to the drugs which is why I don’t take it personally with him as I believe if he was in his right mind all the time he would be a decent person and that’s the f**kary of it all!!
I dunno am not holding out this I think this is probs the longest he’s not been on touch now and this big weekend away he planned is this Sunday obviously that’s not gonna happen so I think he will avoid me over that .. If he even remembers he said that who knows!!
I don’t think I’ll never not be sad over it fully but every day it will get easier I know that, same as you do it’s just getting there! Like I said as long as he stays alive! Also I hope he does stay with this girl as then at least my heart being shattered is kind of worth it in some way x