Most addictions start out feeling good, but as time goes on deep down you know it’s a problem a lnd there is probably alot of guilt shame and remorse which is why you don’t want people seeing you. I know I didn’t. If people don’t see you I can do what I like and don’t have to face up to anything.
Everyone has the ability to recover, it’s how badly do you want it which is they key. I have seen people who looked completely hopeless go on to fully recover and get really well. It is possible