Sadly, I understand only to well also which upsets me because there are so many families/relationships destroyed by this substance.
Cocaine turns people into monsters that becomes obsessed with themselves and the behaviours associated to it.
It very nearly killed me, so leaving was my only option also. You say about “choosing you” – I like that and it’s a good way to look at things because “I chose me too”. But, it was the hardest decision of my life.
I felt wounded, heartbroken and lost. Imagine being second, third or whatever best over No 1 aka cocaine.
I doubt I’ll ever understand what happened and how quickly that drug destroyed my ex partner.
I think I’ll always be numb and hurt over what I went through – I can’t even think about it. I now suffer with PTSD so if you’re thinking of staying then think again.
Don’t end up like me. X