Hi Honey,
I’m sorry that things are difficult for you again.
If you would like to talk to us at The Icarus Trust please get in touch. We are a charity that supports people having to deal with a partner’s addiction. We have trained and experienced people you could talk with if you feel it would be helpful.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrst.org
Good luck.