Hi,
I’m so sorry that you are having such an uncertain, worrying time. It must be very hard for you.I’m glad that you have found this site and are getting help from people on it.
If you would like some more support for yourself please contact us at The Icarus Trust. We are a charity that supports people who are going through what you are, trying to cope with the effect of a partner’s addiction.
We have very experienced people you could talk with who would help to answer some of your questions and, maybe help you to see a way ahead.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrst.org
Good luck.