The lying can really mess with your head. I think I was too naive in the beginning, and genuinely believed the lies. But there was a part of me that had hope, and still does. It definitely makes you second guess yourself, because sometimes I’ll start to wonder if I’m the crazy one. It’s just so hard to walk away because I still see that good person inside of him also. We talked today and I can see that he knows he has a problem. He seems to have a lot of guilt. I suggested CA and he seemed open to it, but I also told him that I didn’t want to force him to do anything, and to at least think about it. I guess I’m also testing how serious he is about quitting, so I can get a better idea on whether or not to stay. I couldn’t imagine what it would be like if there were kids involved. It seems like the parents have to be the best versions of themselves just to have the energy to raise a child.
I’m really happy that everyone here responded. You have no idea how nice it feels to read your stories as well.