Hi takingit easy
I wanted you to know that you are being listened to. I am also new to the forum. These addictions are so cruel. Not only do they affect the user very badly and messes with their thought process but it has a terrible effect on family members and loved ones. I’ve read the other stories too, which are similar to mine, in that my adult son has alcohol and drug addictions. My husband and I are worn out with it all. It’s such a cycle and it’s exhausting for all involved. But at the end of the day they are making these choices, we really need to take care of ourselves. This can be difficult, as you feel you should be helping them. Take all the advice and support available do some meditation and practice mindfulness. It does help you to switch off a bit.