[caregiver19]

I didn’t sleep well last night and my head is killing me. I hate him for putting us through the hell of six months of chemo and the hellish side effects, just to throw it all away for a drink. And I hate myself for sometimes wishing he didn’t make it just so he could have left us with dignity and so we would miss him. I know that sounds awful. I do. I love my husband and don’t know how to live without him bc I never have. We are high school sweethearts but I’ve been through this hell with his dad and I know how it will end.