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Hi Kkkost,

Thank you, i think thats the problem im having at the moment. I dont know how much more i can give, im already going through counselling from everything that’s happened as a result of the addiction, the lies and deceit are something im still struggling to deal with and it just seems its one hurdle after another. I l know this has to come from him. He’s adamant that the tests arent right and hes not touched anything, but how am I supposed to believe that. I wont get sucked back into it all again, at the start of this around xmas when i found out he was using £100 a day i had completely lost who i was i was so low. I wont risk going back there