Thanks so much for sharing your story. I’m so sorry to hear what a really tough time you are having and how bad your wife’s drinking is making you feel.
Path for Recovery are supporting your wife and I can only hope that things will start improving for her again.
However maybe you would like some support for yourself?
I work for a charity called The Icarus trust. We provide support people going through similar things to you, due to a partner or family member’s addiction. If you feel it would be useful please contact us and i could put you in touch with one of our experienced, trained people that you could talk with.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
All the very best to you.