Hi
Thank you for posting and sharing your story.
Please contact us at The Icarus Trust. We are a charity that supports people who are badly affected by their partner’s addition. We know how difficult this can be and we have specially trained people who you could talk with. They are very experienced and, maybe talking with one of them might help you feel less stressed, anxious and able to find a way ahead.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
All the best to you.