he gets his pension.. yes, he’s THAT old and still doing that shit. He did get into the habit of pawning stuff. Getting it back. Pawning it. Getting it back. Just a never ending cycle.
Did he use since the stroke? Yes. (it took about 10 days before he used again).
I heard nothing from him in 12 weeks. Then his sister called to tell me he’s going back to the recovery people.
What was he doing in those 12 weeks, since walking away from me? Using crack. Wasn’t too bothered how I was getting on for those months – but claims he loves me and misses me – and broke down in tears. I don’t doubt he means it, but clearly his addiction comes first.
I’ve heard it too many times, seen it too many times and refuse to be dragged down anymore by him. No more false hope, no more tolerating lies, abuse and disappointment. Today I have self-worth and peace of mind.