Hi xybex
I’m sorry to hear your story, its great that you’re addressing the problem.
I also agree with you when you have anxiety or adhd or ocd it makes it more difficult to say no.
My son has alcohol and drug addictions, the drug addiction is triggered by taking alcohol. He never does anything in moderation. Drinking, drugs, gambling etc whatever he does, he does it 100 %.
That’s why he can’t go out with his usual pals, he can’t just have a normal quantity, he just keeps drinking unfortunately.
He said the best thing is not to drink at all, but lately has been finding this very difficult.
Stick with the AA and CA meetings, they’ll introduce you to others, offer you a sponsor and try a 12 step programme. I know it can work for some, my son managed 3 months clean.
I wish you well, and keep reading the advice from others in the forum. There’s great support here too. Take care Lx