I don’t feel like myself the anger building up inside me is scary tonight I actually felt so angry I didnt even know where my head would take me. For a split 2nd I sat outside where is car was parked and his dealers and I just wanted to smash their cars up and scream at the top of my lungs about what their doing. I did shout your done now and his name your absolutely done. I got home about 5 minutes later if that he pulled up. I kicked his car door didn’t mark or even leave a shoe print and yes I know its not right but it was that or do worse to him. He’s now claiming im abusive which is hilarious considering I was the one left with bruises last week. He’s absolutely deluded now im the bad guy because he’s sleeping out of his car. I told dont even try it you’ve chose this life not me not my kids.
Im destroyed inside but im trying my hardest not to let him see.
I can’t accept him the way he is because I have to keep my children safe especially with social services involved. And I don’t want this life for them. My baby has never had a dad because he took up this habit 3 months before she was born. That breaks my heart, I’m heartbroken for all of my children the other 3 are all old enough to know what their dad is doing which is worse for them.
How are you doing?