Hi Lindyloo,
I’m sorry to read your story and see that your son’s addiction is badly affecting you and your husband. It must feel like a vicious circle, and the abuse and bullying that goes with it must be very hard to cope with.
I’m so glad that you have found this forum and are able to speak with other’s in your situation. If you feel you would like more help for yourself please contact us at The Icarus Trust.
We are a charity that provides support for people dealing with the addictions of a family member. We have experienced and trained people who are good listeners, which might be another way of getting things off your chest. They would also help you to find what other support is available in your area for you.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
Good luck.