Hi
Thanks for sharing your story. If you think it would help please contact us at The Icarus Trust. We are a charity that offers support to people who are affected by a partner’s addiction. If you contact us one of our very experienced and trained people would be put in touch with you. They would understand what you are going through and may be it would help talking to one of them.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
Good luck to you.