Hi Idait
Welcome to the forum, I totally sympathise with you, as will most people here.
At least you know you can vent and people will understand what you are going through as most of us have been there too.
I’m in same position as Debc, my son is also a cocaine and alcohol addict. He has also been dabbling for 10 years.
This addiction affects the whole family and you feel you can’t talk to friends of family about it.
Its a rollercoaster of emotions, and its like walking on eggshells.
It begins and ends with him, nothing will change until he takes the first step.
AA and CA meetings are very supportive as are the info on the forum homepage. Read the other threads lots of helpful advice.
Don’t give up hope, there’s light at the end of the tunnel. My son has had relapses but is currently clean 2/3 weeks and attending meetings online and contacting his sponsor.
Celebrate these successes, …baby steps , one day at a time.
I hope you get the help and support you both need.
Debc – I’m glad to hear things are going well for you and your son.
Lx
Lx