CoCo1212, so sorry to hear what his addiction has done to your family. I’m guessing you have kids together. My heart goes out to you, it really does. What’s your ex’s attitude to it all now then? Does he candidly open up about his addiction does he realise he’s lost you as a result, does he actively want to go cold turkey by his own willpower?
I haven’t witnessed the comedown from heroine, that’s not my bfs thing and from what I know of how different the experience (crack v smack) is, I’d guess the come down may also be very different.
For my bf, when he’s on the crack his heart pounds, his body gets super hot, ‘party for one’ I call it. He satellites almost straight away, but does that more intensely the deeper into it he gets. If we talk while he’s on it, he’s super attentive, contented and almost level headed to the point of being totally reasonable and open about anything. When he’s not on it, it’s totally the opposite. He’s more aware of what’s around him, he gets impatient, really impatient, sometimes it’s clear he has crack on his mind. To me I think it’s like he’s missing feeling good about himself. The irritability and general unpleasantness lessens when we’re around other people / when he’s properly distracted, but it never subsides for long. Personally, I’ve always believed it’s as though he can’t naturally experience positive feelings of love, pride, tenderness, romance (all the nice stuff) anymore. either in part or totally, unless he’s on the crack. Like the natural way his brain feels good things is overridden to such a degree and is now so deeply suppressed it’s as synthetic or nothing. My experiences are by no means backed by medical or scientific knowledge, only knowledge of my boyfriend and our relationship.
Aside from the more mental and ‘feelings’ (or lack thereof), side of things. He also gets quite sweaty. Its not massively noticeable for him and doesn’t tend to last that long. That could be just a him thing though, he’s not a sweaty person anyway. When he does sweat, he’ll sweat through his eyes a bit though.
When he does go cold turkey, and he only does this of his own free will, he’ll exercise more, smoke more, it’s also as though life is dull. From what I know of heroine, as it’s a way to numb the body and (I think) slow the heart, I expect the come down will be the opposite of numb, so pain?! This is obviously just a guess, not based on first hand experience. I’m sorry if that’s not all that useful for you.
Either way though, evil is evil. Crack or smack, both are absolutely disgusting and destructive substances. Does it matter which he’s doing, or is it that you just want to catch him out / prove him an addict? And don’t get me wrong, I’ve been that girl, I’m not being judgey. I guess I’m just asking, will it make a difference either way? Xxx