Hi ivy it’s absolutely heart breaking to read your story and truly appreciate what your going through right now. Like lindyloo has said there really isn’t anymore you can do to make things any better for him until he is ready to take the next step towards recovery. Please please don’t think for 1 second that you as a mother could of stopped this from happening with your son. I know that regardless of my families efforts to help me stop/keep me away from the drugs were never going to be enough. As an addict we will always find a way of getting the substances if we want them. I wasn’t particularly keen on the idea of N.A. meetings as I thought it was a bit of a cult but I was so wrong and the people involved in N.A. are so supportive of the newcomer to any meeting. Even if he’s still using the only requirement for membership is the desire to stop using. As I offered to another mum in the same situation if he would consider talking to another addict that has been where he is now then I would be happy to talk to him and share my experiences of active addiction and the struggles of getting clean again.
