Hi Lamouette,
I’m sorry to hear how your partner’s alcoholism is affecting you. If you would like some support for yourself please contact us at The Icarus Trust.
We are a charity that provides support for the families of addicts. We know how difficult it is to cope in this situation.
If you get in touch one of our trained and experienced people would contact you and maybe talking to them would be helpful. They would also signpost you to what other help is available.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
I hope that this helps. Good luck.