Jaynhissay, thank you for sharing and for such honesty. I guess what you’ve shared just reaffirms what I’ve always concluded myself from an outside looking in perspective, which is a new interesting level of insight I haven’t reached before. Also, it sounds like you’re in a relatively good place right now, a little bit of green sounds like a fair trade for normality and staying off the white and the brown.
If you don’t mind me asking, what happened for you to have had enough? Was it a binge that pushed your body further than before, mentally did you finally let go of a painful memory you are trying to suppress, or was it something else? I hope that isn’t too intrusive of me to ask. Appreciate any insight you can share.
Also, out of interest, if class A was like ten times more expensive, I.e… if it’s street value were so high that no amount of day-to-day working, begging steeling, trading designer goods, etc could raise the money needed. Would that hypothetically force you to stop because it’s so unobtainable? How would that change things?