Thanks Sk21 I am doing a bit better at the moment but I’m very aware of the way my addiction can be the most cunning of things and will creep up on me.
I’m going to be completely honest with you now and I hope it doesn’t upset you or have a negative impact on you because that’s not my intention. I personally think that if you were to leave your partner and separate then I can imagine that his using will get worse initially because he won’t have to answer to anyone or justify his behaviour. That said obviously the hope would be that he is given a kick up the ass by your decision to leave and is the motivation he needs to get some professional help. I know this can’t be easy for you at all and thinking about his situation getting worse with you not there must be an awful amount of pressure but you have to think about yourself in all this. His using is neither your fault or responsibility and if he’s not willing to be making steps to get clean now then I would be very surprised if his using doesn’t increase anyway but with you in the mix of it all. I’m sorry if this is a bit of a negative response to be reading I can only give my experiences and opinions. X