Mines the same! He’s actually really caring and he’s so gentle but he puts on this huge front and when it’s mixed with the alcohol, it gets scary because the front just takes over. It’s getting so so worrying now because just like yours, he’s saying that he’s seeing people down the street and he just wants to kill them. I’m actually so so worried now that he will cause harm to someone else when he’s like this. Because when he goes back to his normal self, it would break him to realise he’s harmed somebody. He has sent essays on WhatsApp blaming most of his problems on my parents and it has absolutely broken them. I am still trying to keep it all together for the sake of my family but it’s really killing me seeing them in pain.
I really wish there was something we could do to change the way they approach people with addiction because their lives matter too!!!