My partner usually gets into a right state when he goes on a mad one. He sometimes just sits there clenching his chest thinking that he is having a heart attack. Then he goes through the shame and guilt phase, the “I don’t even know what else I took”, “I can’t go on like this”, “I promise you I will sort my life out, you and our baby mean everything to me”, “if you leave me I will kill myself”, etc. I really struggle dealing with him. I know I should support him because to be fair to him he did cut down but I am a new mum as well trying to deal with a baby with pretty much no help from our families as they all live far away.
I am scared of him doing something really stupid one day and getting a call that he took it too far and took a mixture of drugs.