Hi @Outofideas
Everything you Sha resonates with me, I’m so anti drug and I’m a nurse which makes it worse as I see the effects following misuse if substance and what it can lead too..
.he knows this and says that why he hid it for so long. But he is always making excuses ..going for drive, washing his van or car then disappears for hours, he cut ties with his friends but now he does it alone in his vehicle god knows where at …I think he goes on the back roads out of the way but he loses hours. He is aggressive when craving it, he is faking happiness without it, when he is happy or sad he uses and says he just feels like it and there is no reasoning, he feels bad after but at the time he does not care and like you say he flips the fck it switch x
Our boys are older but all at home and I don’t want them seeing him like this and living this life, it’s affecting their education and they don’t want to spend Halloween or anything with him due to his actions.
I’m so sorry your having such a horrid time too …it just breaks your heart when you have tried but when do we say enough is enough….I find me thinking do I need this, want this, do I love him anymore? He has done so many things and told so many lies I feel I’m starting to despise him. The paranoia is insane also and I’m certain he has suffered from some hallucinations and psychosis due to this drug use x
Hope you take care … you need to think about you and your little one, how many more broken promises can we take…my partner has a heart of gold and when it’s good it is great but he is like a jacyl and Hyde and I don’t know who I’m going to get …this makes me anxious xx