Im experiencing something similiar- my partner (ex?) was using crack- I didn’t even know what it was I’ve never been round drugs in my life and he has assaulted me, damaged my car, accused me of climbing out of windows to go sleep with his neighbours, just one crazy thing after another- we now have a court case looming too because of what he has done when using- all from the side effects and paranoia he suffers. Anyway he had stopped (as far as I can tell for maybe a few months) but then I found a telltale spoon hidden the other day in a cupboard and I’ve now left him. Im heartbroken as I love him so much but I cant stand the lies, the fear, the worry about what will trigger him to start again which can be anything from boredom to “not trusting me” which he has zero reason not to. I just don’t know what to do- he has rang me 100x today and I’ve ignored every one as I cant bear to speak to him- I found out the day he used to looked online various sites to “hook up” which he is again denying although I can see the google searches in black and white. I just don’t know what to do- is my life always going to be like this- total doubts, wondering where he is if he goes offline, counting spoons in drawers? does anyone have any honest advice as im heartbroken crying and feeling like an utter mug right now xx
