Hi Mellisa82,
Welcome to the Forum, a great place to share your story and to be able to chat with people in the same situation.
Your Husband will only stop when he is ready too, and by the sounds of it he is in a downward spiral at the moment.
Do you think he wants help?
He probably knows that because of finances and family ties that you won’t leave or kick him out, but really what is he doing for you and the children? I know this may sound harsh, but all they think about is themselves, and it’s so unfair to the people they live with and especially for the children.
Have you read the other stories on here? I know there are lots of people in the same situation as yourself.
There is also the Icarus Trust who you can contact as well.
I hope you feel better for sharing your story, I know I did.
Take care of you and your children, keep chatting on here too.
Dx