Hi Noami,
I have an endless amount of empathy for the situation that you are in and have just detailed in your post.
You have come to the right place for support and somewhere to be able to vent your frustrations and emotions. There is a lot of ladies that are in the same or similar circumstances to those that you find yourself in. I don’t know if you have already but I think having a read through some of the other posts may be beneficial for you.
I personally was on the flip side of the coin. It was me that was the addict and I have tried to contribute to some of the other posts by trying to answer some of the questions people had but using my experiences of active addiction.
It’s so important that you look after yourself and your children whilst your having to go through this
I wish you all the very best and I’m sure you will get a few more replies from the others who can offer you some advice.
Take care