Hi Rubyroo,
Thank you for being brave and sharing your story. This such a good forum where you should find many people who will give you good advice and support.
I can imagine how your mental health must be suffering with all that you are going through with your partner and I am so sorry to hear that you lost your baby too.
If you think we could help please contact us at The Icarus Trust. We are a charity that supports the families of addicts, as we know how hard this can be. We have a team of trained and experienced people, one of whom you could talk with if you get in touch. They would listen and understand what you are going through which might help you to know what is the right thing for you to do.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
All the best to you.