Hi Mrs. B
Thank you for posting. I am so sorry that you are feeling on your own dealing with what you are going through with your husband’s addiction.
I work for a charity called The Icarus Trust. We offer support to the families of addicts. If you get in touch I can out you in contact with one of our team of trained and experienced people who you could talk with. They will listen, understand what you are going through, and talking with them might help you make sense of things. They can also let you know what other support is available.
You can contact Icarus Trust on help@icarustrust.org or visit our website http://www.icarustrust.org
Hope this is helpful. Good luck.