I’m sorry to hear that your going through this, it’s so hard when you love them and have history but they are not the same person when under the influence. I too have suffered the nights of paranoia, him standing in corners o bedroom at night walking me to ask me stupid questions. Or looking at cctv and accusing me of moving the angles as I must have people in the home when he is not here…or when working nurse duties at night that I was cheating …I even changed my job to day hours to benefit us…nothing seems to work. I’ve been with him since we were 13 we have three beautiful children and he admits he does it when he is happy or when he is sad that there is not reasoning for it ….this just makes me sad …it was the final straw last week when he smashed the house up. He is now waiting for a rental property which I’m hoping happens soon, but I told him he needs to seek help…because I am clearly not able to help him as he relapses all the time x
I really hope your ok and if need to chat I’m head to listen xx