Jaynhissay
I’ve got no idea what to think at the moment. He claims the guy did the pipe for him and he thought it was crack until he smoked and said this isn’t right what is it. Everyone their was laughing but he became hooked straight away which now does explain methadone which I was struggling with understanding before but had sometimes it is given to people with crack addiction.
He’s the gift that keeps on giving but not in a good way obviously.
I hope your feeling a bit better and more on track now, you did well to get through that day.
Liberty
Anger and upset makes you sometimes say or do things you wouldn’t normally say and do don’t beat yourself up and it. I’ve said many times that maybe death would be the kindest thing if the habit can’t be broken which is nice or right but when angry, hurt and feeling constantly betrayed these are sometimes the feelings we do feel.
I’ll be honest with you I don’t really know anything about drugs like you said I know about green but everything else I’m pretty clueless because it isnt my world.
He knew I was against drugs and after the length of time we were together he should of known how devastated we would all be but clearly he didn’t care.
I don’t think I can blame covid because his dealer got him in so deep having said that it could of made things a little worse he lived with his dealer when his inheritance came through which went within 2 months and it was a substantial amount.
I just want to feel normal again, be happy again but I just can’t see that day coming.
I hope you both are feeling better than me. Take care both of you.